Monday, December 12, 2011

One Bag Packed

Today was a bit of an odd day- but good. It was rainy- so I couldn't get too distracted by any nice weather (or running, unfortunately). I woke up "early" (remember, I have trained my body to stay up "late" to accommodate classes, so early for me is now 7 AM) and did some things for Women's Choir. The final is tonight, but we're not meeting since we have finished. I reviewed and revised my Research Methods final project- and submitted it! So now I just have a final quiz and to show my professor my Research Methods binder. I received an e-mail from my teacher today asking me to create a final for tomorrow morning- so I did that and created an answer sheet. I revised my Teaching Philosophy, although I am sure I will review and revise it again tomorrow. I also finished putting together two "agreements" that will allow me to put both Italian and French diction on my transcript for next semester (I took English/Italian diction this semester and will take French next semester).

Tomorrow morning is the undergrad conducting final. Tomorrow night is Research Methods. Wednesday is the English/Italian diction final. Wednesday night I meet up with friends for a holiday dinner. And Thursday I have some meetings to attend.

After my final on Wednesday I begin my "master works studying". I have a book that lists a bunch of large works and I believe that I need to start studying. So that will happen over break- where I listen and perhaps buy some scores. And look up information. And listen.

Thursday, December 8, 2011

First Final Presentation

Tomorrow is juries. I think I am ready, although I'm nervous. It has been a long time since I have sung for a grade. Last night we had a mock jury for my studio and it went okay. I was very nervous. One of my friends (a grad student in performance) happens to be in my studio, and he was very encouraging. He also commented how he didn't expect such a "big voice" to come from me, saying it seemed very different from my speaking voice. I am really thankful we had a mock jury, because I think that gives me mental preparation for tomorrow morning. After juries, I will study for finals and help prepare a final for undergrad conducting.

I cannot believe that next week is finals. I have two finals- I found out the diction professor wants me to take the diction final. I'm not actually signed up for the class, but will place it on my transcript next semester. It's for one credit and I did a IPA project. I thought that because I did a project, I would not have to take a final. But not true. So that is a new thing I will have to study for. I also have my research methods final, which our professor told us we could use our binder on. Our binder is something we have put together that includes resources and citing rules, as well as Library of Congress call numbers and other things related to research.

Tonight I gave a presentation with a group in my graduate theory class. It did not go quite as smoothly as I had hoped, but it was still a solid presentation. I have a two papers yet and then done. Wow... am I really almost done with my first semester of graduate school? I can hardly believe it.

This break will include a lot of studying of new choral pieces, determining rep for the Women's Choir, and maybe some fun reading. Oh, and wedding planning.

Monday, December 5, 2011

Winter Fest 2011

WinterFest 2011 is over. Wow this weekend went quickly. I am really glad I did homework on Friday- did I think I would have other free time this weekend? I'm laughing.

We had two shows on Saturday and one yesterday (Sunday). Saturday morning I met up with some others I am doing a group project with for Schenkerian theory. I did not anticipate it would take three hours. So when that finished, I really only had time to come back and get ready before I had to head off for WinterFest.

I was so nervous. Not as nervous as I had been for the dress rehearsal- when there was still that fear that maybe I couldn't get through the first movement of the Rutter. But I was still nervous. My leg shook slightly at one point, but it was hidden under a skirt and my hands were steady. Once the trumpet overshot that first A flat because of his nerves, I knew that I could focus in the midst of a glitch. I didn't show much other than the beat and clarity of cut-offs and entrances. The Women's Choir did well at the first show, although their dynamic range was not so expansive at. The tempo was a little slower for "This Little Babe" compared to the dress rehearsal, which was a good thing.

The second show felt better. I wasn't as nervous before the Rutter, although I still felt a little nervous. I was able to show a little more in my gesture, since the nerves went away right away and I was able to focus on the smaller things I did. The ladies sang well, with a few stray notes in Ma Navu (which was odd, considering that didn't happen at the first show... or the third). But the tempos were more relaxed, both from me and when the ladies sang. Their final two chords were in tune. The first concert their penultimate chord didn't lock into place, which was very odd for them. But the second concert did not have that problem. Solid show. My teacher and another ensemble leader (who leads the vocal jazz) both told me they had never heard the ladies choir sound this good- in their 12 or 10 years they have been at the school. I was very excited John flew home to watch this late show. And I was very proud of the ladies.

Sunday's show came around and I found myself a little nervous again. How strange- since I had already done it twice! Before the show, my teacher and I were chatting and he said this was the first time in years he was nervous before a show. I thought this strange since he had already done two of the exact same show the day before, not to mention years of WinterFest before this. Then he told me that the Chancellor was at our show- and he was "one of the most powerful people in higher education." The Chancellor of the CSU system had never been to a WinterFest before. Plus the dean and the provost were there as well. And the Carmelite nuns- which I do not know where they are from or anything about them. All I know is that the singers were so excited to have a group of 30 nuns at our show.

The Gloria went well. I felt very confident, despite the fact I was nervous. I was determined to show things that I had inconsistently showed until that point, so that went well. The choir did well, and the brass was spot on. The Women's Choir did a great job. It took a few phrases to get them to respond to some of the accents we had practiced, but other than that, they did very well. They listened and sang in tune (for the most part) and their dynamic range was the biggest at this concert. I was very proud of them and am very sad to see the semester end.

I know someday when I am conducting the Women's Choir, I will cry. It's hard not to be moved.

Tonight is our last rehearsal- we turn in music and I baked some cookies yesterday for them.

One week of classes left. Wow.

Friday, December 2, 2011

One Week Before Finals

I have been very productive today. I hope that helps with any potential stress levels for Winterfest this weekend or juries next week. Last night I wrote a rough draft of my philosophy of education (for my Teaching Music in the University class). I have a philosophy of music education from undergrad, and although poorly written, I still agree with much of what I wrote. I did not use any of my undergraduate paper for this one. I wanted to write a new one without reviewing what I wrote before until after I already wrote my current paper. I also organized my research methods binder last name, complete with a Table of Contents and colored tabs. The binder is being graded. This morning after my work out I found some more sources for my Master Thesis proposal. We have to have a minimum of 30, maximum of 80. After about 5 hours of searching, I now have 30 sources. It is not due until finals week, so this gives me time to find other sources. I wrote the chapter outline for my master thesis proposal as well, which was a little difficult to do since information is not gathered and categorized until I start on my actual thesis. I just finished my final project for diction, although I want to double check a few vowels. I have to do that using an Italian dictionary, which I do not have. I'll do that on campus next week. I also practiced this morning. I'm happy to report I am making progress on my memorization- especially on my Handel aria "If God Be For Us, Who Can Be Against Us."

My goal was to get as many things on paper as possible. I can do revisions after this weekend.

This leaves me with about 2.5 hours before I leave for our dress rehearsal tonight. In that time I want to review the pieces I am conducting this weekend and spend some time relaxing. I also hope to check in with John. I know he is very busy since his client went live with the software. I was worried that it would stress him out to fly home for one of my performances this weekend, but after our discussion last night I think it will be good for him to get away from the saturation of work, even if just for a little bit.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Mass Rehearsal Day Two

Tonight's mass rehearsal went well. We did a run through of the Rutter with the brass while the choirs sang from the spot they will sing in this weekend. It went okay. I have a few things to practice, but I think it will go well. The choir got behind and then the organist rushed and it fell apart in the middle. But when we restarted the section with me being in firm control of the tempo (and letting the organist know he rushed- well my teacher did that), it went fine. It was so overwhelming. I was exhausted after that one song. 250 voices and a brass choir... it took a lot of focus and I almost couldn't think because there were so many things to listen for: brass and percussion entrances, various choral entrances, shaping the line in the newly decided upon three patten, an organ, plus the choirs are in front of me and in the balcony on both sides of me. My gesture needs to be a little bigger but clear and crisp. I had to sit down for a moment after I finished tonight.

I am getting close to being done with Christmas shopping! Just a few gifts to decide on yet... I love Christmas!

Tempo... I always start with the tempo marking in the music (if there is one) or with the tempo/style description word. Assuming that the composer and/or arranger knows what they are doing (which I like to assume), then I trust the marking and go with that. Depending on the style and the song, there is probably going to be a little give-and-take. Sometimes if the tempo seems not to work for the group, I will make a change. However, even when the tempo seems to not work, I double check the articulation and the emphasis. Example: The ladies could not seem to settle into portions of their tempo in Virgin Mary Had a Baby Boy. Put the emphasis on 2 and 4 instead of 1 and 3, then boom! The song has a different feel and the tempo settles. And sometimes, it just takes the choir's focus.

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Mass Rehearsal Day One

We had our first Winter Festival rehearsal tonight. And after the very warm, tiring group rehearsal I had a Women's Choir rehearsal. They did well, although I am just a little worried that they are not as prepared as they could be. I know they can sing these songs so musically, but I am just not sure if they will. We just did not have a lot of time on them. However, I think they will give a performance that will still be good.

I have some work to do this week on my movement of the Rutter. It is a bit frustrating. I have spent so much time on this song and I cannot seem to find a way of conducting it that meets expectations of my teacher and the brass conductor, shows shape of the line, and is something I can easily change. Every change I make I spend hours practicing- and again today I changed how I conduct the Rutter. After a rehearsal with the brass, I realized I need to show the utmost clarity. Many of my ways of showing line to the choir now has to change because I really cannot really deviate from a three pattern. I am thinking so much in rehearsals about what my gesture is showing that my ears are not listening as well and I am not as good of a teacher when we stop and I give feedback. Perhaps this is part of the learning process, but I wish it did not take so long. Early on in the process, my teacher kept adding or changing things about my gesture and how I was showing things. Then he would change his mind. In my last lesson I really made some good progress and it seemed that my gesture was settling into what was going to be the clearest.

In the end, I believe I will do an okay job and the choirs will sing well. It has just been a very windy process that I want to stream line in the future. I know the learning IS a process, but I would like it to be a more efficient one.

I also should probably make sure I get a good night of sleep. Morning comes early on Tuesdays and Thursdays.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Clarity of Tempo Lesson

Tonight my singers wrote evaluations for me. I don't know if I will get any of the feedback. I know we didn't look at it before we turned it in (and were not supposed to).

The ladies have had some great rehearsals. Tonight being no different. Their winter concert is coming up quickly and they have been excellent progress on their songs, especially since their fall concert. We still have things to do, but I am not worried about making good music.

After rehearsal I spent some time thinking about how I address sacred topics on choir. I am very careful not to dwell too much on one religious belief. Many times I turn it into something generic- instead of thinking about how beautiful the feet are that announce Christ, we talk about what we do when we hear good news. I mention the context and sometimes have asked for thoughts, but I also know there are a variety of faiths in my group. Although I believe the ladies are respectful and understand why we talk about sacred topics. When singing "Virgin Mary Had a Baby Boy", we shared the joy of spreading good news and announcing amazing things that happen. The trick was how to put it into context of the nativity story. I think most expressed this well. I normally travel home with one of the girls in the choir (who lives near me). We talked about this on the way home tonight- she was surprised to think of some of the girls not believing in God. But also understand why I often did have an in-depth discussion on religious topics. In all honesty, the ladies could probably have a conversation about the birth of Jesus, but we do not have time for it and I don't want to risk some of the ladies checking out because they cannot relate.

I also realized tonight that I was getting in the way of myself. "Ma Navu" is taken at quarter note equals 50. In certain parts the ladies like to slow it down even more than that. And the past two rehearsals I was trying to figure out why they wouldn't follow me when I was working so hard to pull them back to tempo. However, that was the whole problem. While I thought I was being clear, I wasn't. Tonight I stood up straight, kept my rebound steady and trusted that they would be with me on the ictus. And they were- and on the rare occasion they weren't, it was often fixed on the next beat.

Then I had this beautiful lesson taught to me. At the end of the piece, I was listening and trying to give certain parts cues. But it was too much and the ladies were not clean. Three or four times they sang the end and were not clean. So finally, I decided not to listen and to just be a counting machine. I focused on clarity of tempo without much musical effusiveness in my gesture. Guess what? It was not only cleaner but also more musical. Great lesson. And glad I learned that now.

Tomorrow I have my conducting lesson. And I am going to the band to teach them a French pavane they are singing during a song. Their director asked me to come in for 15/20 minutes. Should be fun... even trying to pronounce the French.

Monday, November 21, 2011

Thanksgiving Week

Next to me is the soprano book from Barbara Strozzi's Il Primo Libro de Madrigali. After I sign off for tonight, I will look at it before I go to bed and maybe begin transcribing.

My studio is having mock juries the first week of December. It's during my lesson time so I really can't skip it. This means I will probably have to perform. And that makes me VERY nervous. I have not sung in preparation for being graded for years. Did I mention it makes me nervous? You know, singing is different when it is not being "judged". I always felt like juries were a one shot deal- have a bad singing day or being unfocused and all the work you did for the semester goes down the tubes. So, I guess the point is... it makes me nervous.

It is a short week. I have Wednesday off of school- which means Thanksgiving prep. And hopefully some homework. I would like to work it out so that all I have to do over Thanksgiving weekend is looking at my vocal pieces and conducting pieces.

I also am in the process of beginning my final project for Research Methods, which is a master thesis proposal. I have a lot of basic information down and need to fill in the blanks before I actually start researching sources. I do not like the paragraph I have written, but I plan on the paragraph changing over the next year.

Speaking of Thanksgiving, one of the many reasons I am excited about the holiday is because we will decorate for Christmas on Thanksgiving morning!

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Strozzi Facsimile Publication

I have a facsimile of Il Primo Libro de Madrigali by Barbara Strozzi. It is my research professor's facsimile. I am hoping to get my own copy. I just need to figure out where to find it. I can't seem to find a place in America that sells it.

At any rate, this is my new task.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

True energized piano

I just had a wonderful and surreal experience. I came home in between choir and my evening class to work out. When I run toward downtown along the bike path, I can see the downtown skyline. I was listening to a Fresh Air about multiverses, instead of the universe. I really don't mean to turn all SG-1 in this blog, but it was neat to hear this scientist talk about the mathematically supported hypothesis of multiverse. He was illustrating a point by talking about the shape of the earth and comparing that to a shape of a universe (and the implications that would have). Do you ever have those moments where you think you can briefly understand the bigness of something? It happens, it's overwhelming, and you lose the feeling. But at the same time, it's almost as if you got to experience something awesome. In a way it's what I sometimes experience in music- for a moment you experience something bigger than yourself. And far from being scary, it's inspiring. I just wish I could hold onto the feeling longer.

Today we started recording a new composition. This is unlike anything I have done. At Luther, we made recordings of demo CDs for new music. This is a composition by a San Francisco Bay area composer. It's a new age-y type of music encompassing the philosophy of the life and death of things in nature... things that come into harmony with each other and then fight against each other. Mistakes were made and instead of correcting them, his response was, "Well, it sounded cool. So if it sounds cool with the other tracks, we'll use it." It certainly is a creative process. I don't think I could be a composer. I'm glad there are people suited to this- lest we would not have new music.

My friend Austen posted on a previous blog and posed the question "How does a conductor achieve an energized piano dynamic?" Great question! I have been thinking a lot about this too. As much as I would like to just will an energized piano dynamic into being, it will not happen. First, I have to set the demand by asking for it but keeping the energy up. I do this by asking for forward/surging energy without a crescendo. I also play around with how I show this in my gesture. Some gestures work better than others. The one I really like to tap into is a sort of t'ai chi gesture. Now, I know nothing about t'ai chi. I don't even think I know exactly what it is. If you asked me, I would say a lot of "um"s and maybe say something about movement and breath. We had a guest conductor a month or so ago. He was a CSU alum and went to undergrad with my teacher. He demanded our choir sing a true piano. It took multiple tries, great support, and intense focus, but we got there. So I have at times used some of the things I used from him, including a contained, low, centered, "rounded" gesture. Sometimes my ladies can't get to it. Sometimes I am not demanding enough. There are moments when they do really well but not quite a true energized piano. And sometimes I let it slide. Sometimes not. I should be more consistent.

The answer is: I don't know always to get a true energized piano. But I'm working on how to get there. I think that is one of the differences between choirs that sound good and choirs that affect us on levels we can't describe.

Addressing Those Around Us

It was a good, focused rehearsal tonight. I am relieved that most of the rehearsals are strong and focused. Tonight was especially hard because we had so much to get done. Other than work on our own pieces, we also had our guitarist come in. Then the mens chorus came in for the last 45 minutes to work with us on the joint pieces. It was long and vocally demanding.

I never know how to address professors. Having taught for five years, I learned to start thinking of everyone by their first name. I found that when I thought of someone as a "Mr." or "Mrs./Ms.", at times it was difficult to work collaboratively and feel comfortable/confident speaking up in meetings. In front of students, I called them by their title, but not in conversation. Now at graduate school, it is a bit of a strange situation. No matter what, I always call a professor by their title in front of undergrads. Normally in a classroom setting with graduate students as well- out of habit and formality in a structured setting. In a casual setting, my tendency is to think of professors as people- and thus by their first names. I call my teacher by his first name unless we are in front of students.

Perhaps at one point I needed to call professors by their official titles to understand their position as an educator. I really do not feel that how I address someone affects how I view them now. If anything, a professor that insists on being called by their title in all situations I will probably think is pretentious. When I become a professor (notice "when", not "if"), I will probably want undergraduates to call me by "professor" for a few reasons that I am perhaps a little too tired to explain clearly at the moment. I'm not so keen on "Dr". I will certainly not insist my colleagues call me anything other than my first name and if there are graduate students at my school, I will not ask that they do either. Although I think I want to work at an institution that is undergraduate only. I have only just begun to think about that.

I may change my mind on all this as I am in the profession longer. But I don't think so.

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Winter Festival

Rehearsal for tomorrow night is planned. It is mid-November and crunch time is right about to hit. We have two rehearsals left before our dress rehearsal week for Winter Festival. Tomorrow evening our guitar accompanist is coming to rehearsal. The school currently does not have a harpist, so we are using a nylon string guitar. The women sing from one of the balconies and the piano is on the floor, which would make me a little nervous in the rhythmically demanding "This Little Babe". After the guitarist practices with the women, the mens chorus is coming to join us so we can sing through the mass pieces. It will be a full rehearsal.

I am excited about the music that I programmed for Winter Festival. The women will begin with a song entitled "Ma Navu", based on Isaiah 57:2. It's melody is based on an Israeli folk tune. The woman who arranged this piece, Barbara Wolfman, is a former colleague of mine. It has been a real blessing to hear her thoughts on the piece, certain things to focus on, and have explained clearly the textual ideas. We have been loosely singing this song for three, but really spent some time on it the past two weeks. Tomorrow the big focus will be to solidify dynamics (specifically when it is piano), be intentional about articulation, and listening to vowels.

The second piece the ladies will sing is actually a combination of two pieces from Benjamin Britten's Ceremony of Carols. They will sing "As Dew in Aprille", followed by "This Little Babe". The ladies have been working on this for about four or five weeks. "This Little Babe" has created a bit of an obstacle with verses two and three, but last week the ladies did an excellent job on this. Tomorrow night the demand will be on dynamics (again, specifically when it is piano) and getting the crescendos to be paced in the most effective manner. Every once in awhile someone will still breath in the wrong place or end the song by closing their mouth (cutting out the potential for the ending to ring). Actually, it is normally just one person that forgets, but we're working on it.

The last piece is a song entitled "Virgin Mary Had a Baby Boy" by Stephen Hatfield. We will spend quite a bit of time on this tomorrow evening. The third section in this piece asks for varying rhythm and text for all four parts. Intense counting and focus were required last week to begin learning this section and I suspect we'll have to relearn parts of it- but it will not be entirely unfamiliar. Since this piece is the newest, the focus tomorrow will be to correct stray notes (especially in that third section), implement some of the easy dynamics (and again, I will focus on the piano), and the warmth of sound.

I have been thinking a lot about dynamics. Not forte (loud or "strong", rather)... but piano (quiet). Many choirs (including all my choirs from the past five years) can do forte very well. Mezzo-forte, forte range... great. Mezzo-piano was normally the quietest I would demand. But listening to my teacher talk and being inspired by a guest conductor we had one time, I have come to appreciate the difficulty of singing a true piano with good support and energized sound. It is very easy to sing something piano but with no energy. And I am finally working with a group that can, with some effort, get to a beautiful and energized piano sound. It takes a lot of work to get there. It takes a lot of determined focus and demands from me as well.

If anyone is interested in seeing the YouTube channel for the music school, let me know and I can give you a link. None of the things I have conducted are up yet, but they will be eventually.

Monday, November 7, 2011

Running With a New Name

We had our choir concert on Saturday night. I am very proud of the ladies. More on that at a later date.

I went for a run this morning and followed a different path than normal. I had an incident with a strange old man and then when I got home, there was a pony outside of the apartment complex. It was standing by a truck and was certainly not a sight I expected to see.

I received an e-mail from my research methods professor this morning. She talked about my master thesis. I am still excited about it. As I was thinking about submitting proposals and doing research, it hit me that my research would stretch across two years- and in between those two years I would acquire a new last name. I want to be intentional about submitting any proposals or requests that I will need next year under my new last name. Hence, I will be discussing both with my research methods professor and my graduate advisor what to submit with my new last name.

Friday, November 4, 2011

Rebound and Experimentation

Yesterday in choir I conducted the first movement of the Rutter Gloria. I had the advantage of teaching it in undergrad conducting yesterday morning. So I was very aware that I had to practice what I preached. The problem is, I am not exactly sure how I want to conduct this. I will have lessons on it (Tuesday is my first lesson on it). But the tempo is quick (60 equals a dotted half note). And I like that tempo. I start by conducting it in three, but quickly change to a super metric 1 pattern. My teacher has a saying: "Don't do in more when you can do in less."

But the problem is I can't stay in 1. Even if I wanted to keep the tempo completely rigid the entire time, my teacher wants me to relax the tempo at a certain section. So to have more control over the tempo, I will switch back to three... And then of course, back to 1 later when we are back at the bright, "leggerio" tempo. So having made some decisions, I went into choir yesterday. We have read it through 3 or 4 times now, although we have not spent a lot of time on it. Last time they sang it, I pushed the tempo. They drag terribly. They learned it at a slower tempo and want to keep it there. So I set the new tempo- or rather, the right tempo.

And for the first time ever, I switched my gesture mid conducting to help the choir. I didn't tell them or even think much of it. There were times I had to switch back to three to keep them on top of the tempo. So as much as it was frustrating, it was also exciting that I am starting to make changes in my gesture to help. My conducting is becoming a tool for effective rehearsal. And that is why I am in grad school! Well, and to get a degree so I can get a job I want.

I also received a message from an undergraduate who said watching me gave them some new ideas to try.

I went into the rehearsal with a gesture I wanted to try. When the choir needed help, I experimented with my gesture.

I also know that I did some things poorly yesterday. I had practiced it, and so I was frustrated that it did not work in rehearsal. But it also reinforced how important the rebound is. A conductor can begin accelerandos or ritardanos by the rebound. It can also cause your choir to rush or slow down if your rebound is steady or does not have a height that makes sense to the tempo. That is what I am most aware of now.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Class Canceled

I wish I could treat all my free time as precious as I treat it when a class is canceled. My research methods professor is terribly ill and canceled class tonight. So I was done with my day at 3. I got home about 4 (when the bus dropped me off), went for a run, came back and practiced (or rather tried to memorize "If God Be For Us, Who Can Be Against Us" for lessons tomorrow), and just finished eating. When I'm done writing this, I will practice conducting and later on do a little Beethoven analysis. I do not particularly like having a class canceled, but I thought I would make the most of it.

I was very relieved today. We were singing through the 2nd and 3rd movement of John Rutter's Gloria. And my teacher mentioned that while Rutter is good at capturing moments and making the most of things, but he uses all his tricks... in every song. He continued on and said he probably would not want to attend a concert of just Rutter music. I am glad for this. I like John Rutter, but I would not want to a song of his every year. It's nice stuff- in moderation.

I cannot believe it is November.

Monday, October 31, 2011

Halloween Dress Rehearsal

Tonight is the dress rehearsal for my concert. I have a feeling the ladies will have to use music on the Palestrina. We will try it tonight without music. But I would rather have them reference their music and sing it well as opposed to miss entrances, words, and rhythms because they do not know it well enough. I think tonight's rehearsal will require a lot of focus. It's Halloween and even one woman asked me last week if rehearsal would go the entire time. I told her to plan on it. I might let them out a little early, but only if it is a good, focused rehearsal. And we need to have a good 2 hours of rehearsal tonight. On Friday I e-mailed out part recordings for two of their new songs. I hope they use them.

I wish I could start the semester over with them. There would be a few things I would be more demanding on. The concert will go well- the women will sound nice. I am excited (and motivated) to work hard on our Winter Festival pieces.

We had our choir concert this past Saturday. It went well. I am very excited that I am at this program. It was easy to remember why I chose to come to this school as I was singing and specifically while I was watching my teacher conduct the other group.

I am also feeling very motivated to improve my own conducting.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Master Thesis

So a rather academically eventful last 36 hours.

Yesterday I met with my graduate advisor and planned out most of my time here. My last semester will hopefully be lighter so I can take my (4 credits worth) master thesis. We spoke a little about my master thesis. Actually, for MM scholars, it's called a "Project Report", since we have to do a recital project. Our paper is based on an aspect of our recital. I do not need to be extremely specific yet, but I will work on my thesis proposal in research methods this semester. I am hoping to do something about an early woman composer. Perhaps Madalena Casulana, Francesca Caccini, Barbara Strozzi, or a few others are potential composers. Yesterday I was very interested in Caccini, but after talking to my graduate advisory and my research methods teacher (both are early music scholars), I am more interested in Strozzi. In my dream world, I would fly away to some European country (all on a grant, of course, so it would cost next to nothing) and uncover an old manuscript no one has seen since the woman composer wrote it. However, since the likelihood of my stumbling upon an old manuscript is slim-to-none, I would settle for taking a Strozzi manuscript (apparently much of her stuff has not been edited yet) and put it into a performance edition. This song would then be performed on my recital. And I would do a lot of research on the piece itself. That research might require some travel... If I must travel to Italy to do real research, then I must! John suggested I look at some cheaper options first.

Today had potential to be a rough day. But it turned out okay. I was late to the conducting class I assist with- for a reason that was entirely my fault and inexcusable. I simply lost track of time and got there 3 minutes late.

I had my conducting lesson today as well. I had a hunch it would not go well. For the past week, I have not known what to practice with my conducting. And it's not because I'm an expert conductor. So this told me that I did not know what to look for- which also meant I was probably doing something poorly and just not recognizing it. So I went to my lesson- and sure enough, multiple things were corrected. A few times I came close to tears. The criticism was not too harsh, but I was very frustrated. I had to remind myself that I would get nowhere if I gave in to the frustration, but that I should focus on the task at hand. That helped me refocus. In times like that, I also like to remind myself that progress is slow- I will not be an expert overnight. At the end of the lesson, I conducted two measures and my teacher stopped me. The accompanist in the room nodded and said, "Yes. That was amazing." I conducted the two measures once more, and again my teacher stopped me. He said, "That was beautiful and clear. That was professional level conducting. Make sure you footnote me when you are into your professional career." We all laughed at that, but it was quite a compliment.

I also need to remind myself: I came here to get better at my gesture. It is okay if there are growing pains. And I do need to work hard. If I don't, this is a waste of my time and money.

The day went on. And it ended up being a good day. Everything I thought I was going to be disappointed in turned out okay. We were given a surprise quiz in Research Methods on a book she had told us to look at a few weeks earlier. The book included writing tips. I skimmed through it but realized it was just good writing technique, so did not spend time taking notes, highlighting, etc. I was worried about the quiz and got a 13.5 out of 15 on it. In my mind, if it's not a perfect score or close to it, it just is not good enough. Turns out I got the 2nd highest score in the class- and received a prize (a ruler with a list of musicians). My friend Grace received the highest score, earning 14 out of 15. I was quite excited about this. I told John this story after class and he called me (I think he was teasing but I'm going to pretend he was being sweet) his cute little bookworm.

The second I walked into conducting late today I thought, "This could be a bad day. I can't let it be." And what do you know? It turned out to be a productive, positive day.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Saturday Night Concert- Other types of Music

While others were there to see Social Distortion, we were there to see the Avett Brothers. We were pretty far back on the lawn, but we were at the very front of the lawn.
Below, we are getting psyched to see the Brothers! I am wearing my cowgirl hat (bought in Escanaba, MI) in support of the Avett Brothers.
Below is what the inside of the Verizon Amphitheater looks like. There were two bands before the Avett Brothers
On the way up to the lawn seats, I snapped a picture of a portion of the park outside the amphitheater.
And, here is the entrance.

Friday, October 21, 2011

Surprise Rehearsal

Tuesday I was asked to come up and conduct in choir. This was unexpected- and it was a song I have not conducted before. It was great. My teacher gave me a little feedback and I tried what he wanted. After rehearsal, he told me I did a great job and his compliment was so genuine. It was nice to hear.

My teacher was gone yesterday and will be gone today. He has a big festival he's conducting this weekend and is immersed in rehearsals and logistical decisions.

Yesterday I taught undergrad conducting. I was asked to put together a lesson plan covering the concepts they had read about over a month ago. I had a three page lesson plan. We made it through not quite half. A lot of questions were asked and hopefully things were clarified. There was a fire drill during the class period, so we lost about 10 minutes of class time. It was fun and I think I would really enjoy teaching conducting.

After class, I saw a friend (who also happens to be the undergrad choral office assistant) and asked her if she knew what was happening in choir, since our teacher was not there. Her response was, "Yes, he sent out an e-mail. You're in charge of the first 50 minutes of rehearsal." The e-mail had went to my junk box. She printed off the e-mail for me and I mentally prepared myself for the rehearsal. In warm-ups, I wanted to make them aware of two things: Vowel alignment and intonation. Their pitch rarely was an issue in the songs I was conducting, but I knew that later in rehearsal when the other choral grad student took over, he would work hard on intonation. Or rather, have the choir work on listening.

In the second piece I worked on, the choir was asked to sing a lot of things softly. But intensely. And it was a different experience working with a group that had a wide range of dynamics. It made me think about how finding an ensemble's true "piano" would help open up possibilities of expression. I do not think I demand true "piano" from a group often. Yesterday was different and it was well worth it.

I also had the group sing through the first movement of Rutter's Gloria. That's the one I am conducting at the beginning of December. I thought we would have plenty of time to work on things. But we didn't and I ended up singing past mistakes they would have fixed had there been time.

It's cool here today. I'm going to put on a sweatshirt for my run.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Baton Introduction

2:00 in the afternoon and it's perfect weather for a run. The sun is bright, the breeze is strong, and being near the ocean makes the temperature cool. The path was not crowded, which is strange for a weekend. And I listened to a This American Life interview with Brad Pitt.

I received an e-mail today from my research methods professor. She was reminding us of our assignment due on Tuesday, and in it she asked for something this week that is due next week. Either that or her wording is very unclear. This kind of thing drives me nuts.

I have started practicing my conducting with a baton. After Rejoice in the Lamb, the next thing we will be working in lessons on is the John Rutter Gloria. I do not know what we will be doing after that, but my teacher has mentioned a few other pieces to me. There are a lot of things I like about a baton. My left hand feels different when my right hand is holding a baton. The two function differently and those functions are a lot easier to separate when one hand has a fiberglass extension. I also have less tension in my right shoulder when I conduct with a baton. Perhaps it's a mental state: I think my arms has to work less because the baton is clarifying for me. It's not quite that simple. In reality, I am probably conducting with too much tension without the baton.

Now I am waiting for the (very expensive) John Rutter full score I ordered. At the end of my masters I will have a nice little collection of scores.

Friday, October 14, 2011

Fog in the Afternoon

I had my voice lesson on Wednesday and my teacher said something to me that will be very helpful. He asked me if I listened to myself when I practice and I said yes. He replied, "Don't." Don't listen to myself sing- focus on the technique. I have heard this before but it's never really sunk in. I listen for things and try to fix and it causes tension (and ultimately frustration). I think this will be really helpful.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Spring Semester Class

There is a class that I want to sign up for during Spring semester. I found out this morning it will count toward my degree as a history, although I would be willing to take it as an elective. It combines what has long been the time period that fascinates me the most with women composers and the role of gender. The class is a Baroque semester and is: Courts and Convents, Courtesans and Castrati: Music and gender in early modern Europe.

My research methods professor is teaching it next semester. One of our assignments for this week is to spend some time with a scholarly article (and answer a bunch of questions about it). We have the get the article approved by her and I found three articles I was interested in- one about Francesca Caccini and two about Barbara Strozzi. Either way, I'll probably read all the articles since I am interested in the topic. When my professor e-mailed me back to give me the "verdict" on the articles, she also mentioned the class she was teaching. I am really excited about this class.

I read the e-mail before my run this morning. As I was running, I started thinking about my interest in women composers, which led me to think about women conductors. Conducting is a relatively young profession for women- but who were some of the first prominent women conductors? Or, have there really been prominent women conductors? If not, what women first decided they wanted to conduct and how did they get there? What was that first rehearsal like? I bet it was not co-ed. But what about the first co-ed rehearsal?

These are things I'd like to explore.

Friday, October 7, 2011

Pre-Ordered iPhone

I have decided I need to dedicate time to standing in front of the mirror and conducting. You might say, "But haven't you already done that?" And the answer is yes, yes I have. But I don't schedule in practice time. I practice here and there when I have time. 10 minutes at night, 15 minutes in the morning, etc. And now that I have had my first conducting lesson, I know more things to look for. Thousands of hours- that's what it will take to really become a master. I'm not sure if I'll get thousands and thousands of hours of conducting in during my masters, but I hope to get close to that.

Much of my homework is done. I have a little to do this weekend for two classes, but it will not be extremely tough. This is great, because I really look forward to spending time with John this weekend- exploring CA and getting more familiar with the area.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Conducting Lesson

I had my first full conducting lesson. Finally. Very glad about this.

We worked on some things to help with clarity of gesture. In the slower sections I was subdividing by relaxing my wrist slightly. I din't realize I was doing this. I don't know when the subdivision crept in the gesture... I didn't see it when I practiced in front of the mirror. I practiced my subdivision at the beginning of the year, although not while working on Rejoice in the Lamb. At any rate, I was able to get a good look at my gesture without the subdivision, so that's helpful.

What I liked about the lesson was the quick feedback from my teacher and the fact I was able to make quick fixes. I was a little worried he would ask me to do something and I wouldn't be able to fix/change it on the spot. But, at least in this lesson, that was not the case. The lesson will help me focus on some specific things. Time to put in the practice so that at my next lesson, I can show improvement.

We made it through almost half of the Britten. So we'll finish that... and then we're going to start on the Rutter Gloria. He would like me to buy the full score- which I found for $109 on Amazon. I suppose I need to get used to the idea that I need to buy scores. Or rather, John and I need to get used to the idea that we will be buying scores. It does encourage me to not spend money on books for other classes if I don't have to get them. I won't purchase any suggested material- and if I don't need the required material, I won't get it.

I am already thinking about classes for next semester. We are just about halfway through this semester. The undergrads are all taking midterms this week and next week.

I still do not know what my final project/test is going to be at the end of my masters. I have been thinking about that. I think I give a recital (put on a concert) and I heard the other day I take an audio test. A choral song is played and my job is to say what the song is, who it is by, and give the background of the piece and the composer. But I do not actually know any of this for certain. I'll know more when I meet with the graduate advisor in a couple of weeks. By the way, I think the graduate advisor is awesome.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Effusive

Rehearsal went so well tonight. There were moments of really good music making. And my two outer sections can really blend. The soprano 1 ladies really sing together well- with a beautiful, clear, light sound. And I could take more confidence from my alto 2 ladies, but they certainly know how to sing as a section.

The pacing of the rehearsal was good as well.

Sometimes it is so overwhelming to be in front of a group of singers. The desire to be the best teacher and clearest conductor is so strong. That's what they deserve- singers who want to make music and be proud of it. Sometimes I am not very clear in what I want to say- I need to be more succinct. The problem with enjoying my job is sometimes I become effusive with love for music, for the group, for life. Sometimes I just need to stop talking. But I hope I never lose that pure excitement for singers that are learning and are enjoying coming together as a group.

Tomorrow is a big day- Apple will hopefully announce the upcoming release of a new iPhone. I'm ready.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Maddalena Casulana

Tonight we took a quiz in research methods. The quiz was on music article databases and on databases for dissertations. Last week we worked on databases for dissertations and articles in class and turned in our classwork. Needless to say, I did awful on the quiz. I didn't know which databases showed the articles in abstract versus which ones showed full text. All I remember is searching databases and coming across the same articles in many of the databases. And that some of the articles had full text and some didn't. And no, I didn't remember the name of the dissertation databases because last week our grad TA told us just to google it. It was rough.

My research methods professor also opened up my bibliography to show the class (she chooses someone's assignment every week to go over) right after the quiz. It was not awesome. While the information I had down was not wrong, I did not cite which series the book and article/chapter title were from. She's letting everyone in the class go back and redo the assignment.

For those of you that know me well, you know that I do not like to do things incorrectly. And it's even worse in front of the class. I don't mind learning from my mistakes, but I get so embarrassed when it is in front of others.

On an up note, she did call me "so smart" because I knew who Maddalena Casulana was. We practiced writing annotations after we wrote a paragraph about her. As she was handing out the sources we were going to use, she said, "I picked a composer nobody will probably know anything about. Has anybody heard of Maddalena Casulana?" I said yes. She asked me what I knew. And I was able to tell her the very little I remembered on the spot: She was a Renaissance composer and I know she wrote at least one book of madrigals. She was also one of the first woman composers who had music printed. Had I been given an extra moment to think about it, I would have remembered the dedication of her first book of madrigals. She stated (I'm paraphrasing) how she was excited to be able to be supported in an art form that men think they are superior in. She was really quite awesome. Anyway, after I told the professor what little I remembered, she said, "Yes, exactly. You're so smart." And then continued on... I didn't think it was sarcastic and at least it made me feel better after the horrendous quiz and sketchy bibliography.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

First Sick Day

Yesterday's Women Rehearsal went really well- although unfortunately we are doing a lot of note shedding. The ladies start sectionals this week and I think that will help. We have a lot of music this semester.

I have not been feeling well, so yesterday I cancelled everything except Women's Chorus. This morning I'm still not feeling well (about the same as yesterday) and unfortunately it is a fairly full day. My research methods professor sent out an e-mail on Sunday "clarifying an assignment" so I also have to run to the library to do a few more things for an assignment I thought I had finished before I went to the midwest.

Otherwise, I'll be trying to stay as relaxed as possible today and maybe even allow myself to sneak in a nap somewhere on campus? I'm not sure how that will work, but we'll see.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Almost Ready for a Trip Home

Today seemed like a very successful, steady day. I skipped my diction class to take notes for my paper/bibliography. I'm not actually signed up in the diction class- I'm just there to get Italian and English IPA in my head. And today they reviewed consonants. Next week they talk about a few things I want to be there for. I think it was the right choice. I typed up my bibliography tonight, did some follow-up things for women's choir, and am putting together my flight info and bag for tomorrow. I feel like I have everything ready, which makes me nervous. That's probably when I'll forget something. I'll be bringing homework with me for the weekend- I even prioritized what to take with me in case not everything fits. Hopefully I'll get some done tomorrow, however, in my two free hours. No homework will be done except at the airport (I will be there a couple of hours before my flight takes off) and on the plane ride back to CA- but not the plane ride to the midwest since it is an overnight flight.

I am slowly finalizing my Winter Festival pieces for the Women's Choir. More on that later.

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

First Paper

I was assigned my first paper tonight. Due in two weeks. However, we have to turn in our bibliography next week, which means my research (or at least my sources) have to be decided upon- which I won't know until I have a good outline of my paper. I leave Thursday evening and come back Sunday night. So tomorrow I head into school and straight to the library. I think if I'm focused, I can get enough done in a couple hours of research tomorrow morning- it's a short paper.

My Women's Choir rehearsal went very well last night. The pacing was great- the ladies were interested and engaged the entire time and we made great progress. The section leaders are going to lead some sectionals so that we can make more music and do less sight reading in rehearsal. I look forward to hearing some progress.

Tonight as I get to bed, I plan on taking out a text book and reading. I thought the reading was marked incorrectly on the syllabus so I didn't read it. But, I asked a friend in the class and realized that yes, the reading was marked. So I need to get that done.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Ceremony of Carols- SSA

Ceremony of Carols is resolved. I e-mailed the company and they are sending me the correct SSA version, plus a stamped envelope for me to send back the SATB version. Done.

My weekend is about to start. Not much happening- I have some school stuff today. I'll spend most of the weekend doing homework, enjoying the area, and playing for church. I may or may not get together with some school friends. I think what I will do is try to get a head start on my homework since I am gone next weekend. Some of the professors put their assignments for the entire semester on their syllabus. The only class I really will need to do anything for ahead of time is my theory seminar. I should be able to stay up late enough to do homework for those other classes.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Ceremony of Carols- SATB?

Strange situation: I ordered Britten's "Ceremony of Carols" on Amazon. My ladies are going to sing a movement or two out of it for our winter concert. I received it today- as an SATB arrangement and with a German translation underneath original language... and it's an arrangement by someone other than Benjamin Britten. First of all, I had no idea this existed. Second, there was nothing about any arrangement on the website when I ordered it. I think I'll be irritated if they do not exchange it.

Otherwise, I'm waiting on some perusal scores for our winter concert. It's exciting!

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Teaching Conducting Students

I "taught" my first conducting class yesterday. I suppose I was a little nervous before it began, but like I am in any teaching situation where I feel a little nervous, I fake confidence and go forth. Each student had to bring a Bach Chorale and conduct their classmates while they sang it. When I was not sure of what the student was doing, I asked to see it again. I asked the conducting student a lot of questions while they were up front, as well as asked about text translation and meaning. They received two grades: one on conducting and one on analysis of their score.

Afterwards, I got a little bit of feedback. A few students asked to meet up with me during my office hours so they could work with me. Another undergrad said that (and this does not surprise me) that even though he was still nervous, it was less intimidating to work with me. He continued by saying that it was very plain I was their to help them improve and do well.

The other day I was thinking about the kind of teacher I want to be, both now and with my future students. I want to be demanding and I want my students to know that I have high expectations of them, but I also want them to know that I am here to help them succeed.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Grades

Tomorrow I hand back a quiz to the undergrad conducting class. There are multiple Ds and Fs. I feel bad. But I shouldn't, right? The teacher in me thinks, "If I have motivated students and they put forth an effort, shouldn't they do better than Ds and Fs?" But I've come to conclude that is the wrong perspective. In teaching high school, if our students fail than there is feeling that the teacher has failed. If any student fails, we have failed in our job. That mentality is very strong. I wanted to teach everyone.

Is it different in college? I'm not sure. I cannot give up on the idea that all students are able to be engaged and learn. But again, my perspective may be wrong. A bad grade does not mean they have not learned.

This thought process is a work in progress.

Tonight my goal is to fall asleep before midnight.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

10 Years Later

I am conducting the first movement of the Rutter Gloria at the Winter Festival- with all the choirs and the brass. Pretty exciting! Women's Concert is November 5. Winter Fest is December 3 and 4.

Where was I September 11, 2001? My first year of college. I remember it vividly. Not understanding what was going on, a bomb threat on campus, prayer circles, candles.

Memorial Service

My conducting lesson went fine. I have some solid things to work on for next time- a direction to take. For example, I am not going to try to learn the Britten in one swoop. I will learn it in sections.

I received my rolling bag yesterday and transferred everything immediately from my backpack to the rolling bag. So excited. Plus now I can use the microphone pencil case my soon-to-be mother-in-law gave to me. John helped me go through the things I should and shouldn't put in the pencil case. I am sure he thought me asking for help was strange, but I will try to bring everything and get frustrated when it won't fit. He's a good filter.

Today I had an ACDA workshop about 35 minutes away. I went to two reading sessions and two workshops, plus got to meet some area conductors. It was a good, solid day and I have some ideas for music from one of the reading sessions.

I really think having that extra GA position takes up enough time to make me feel like I have very little of it. I'm okay with this because it's great experience and decent money, but I would like to really find a groove over the next two weeks.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Rejoice in the Lamb





I found today that I am having a conducting lesson tomorrow. My teacher said, "Do you know Rejoice in the Lamb?" I paused and replied, "I think so." He asked, "Do you think you can know it by tomorrow?" I said, "I sure can try."

So my first conducting assignment is to learn "Rejoice in the Lamb". Yeesh! It will be in rough shape tomorrow- especially since I did not have any time to work on it until I got home, which was about 8:00 PM. But I was not about to tell my teacher that I thought it was too intense of an assignment for my first lesson (taking place in less than 24 hours).

My back is feeling more pain and soreness than it did this morning. I ordered a bag with wheels. I should get it on Friday afternoon. If I can make it through tomorrow, Friday will be fine. It's a light day.

So in the mean time, above are some pictures of our San Diego excursion over Labor Day weekend. More explanation in a later entry. It was a good trip. The first picture is actually from our hike on Labor Day which we did north of Malibu. Again, more on that later.

Rolling Backpack

My back is a little sore. My book book bag is VERY heavy. I really do not want to a backpack that rolls, but the thought of carrying a heavy book bag around for the next two years? If my back is already sore after a week, what will happen after two years?

I think I may look for some cheap ones on Amazon. I'm going to look very uncool.

We had a great weekend in San Diego and hiking north of Malibu. Pictures coming in the next few days.

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Under Grad Conducting

The good news is that yesterday I was asked to TA an under graduate conducting course. Not only does this mean more money, but it means that I get experience in teaching a conducting course- something I want to do in my future. It meets on Tuesday and Thursdays from 9:30 AM to 10:45 AM. For this, I'll have to be on a bus by 8:30, which means early work outs. I am really quite ecstatic about this development. It is a beginning conducting course. There are two sections since there were so many students that showed up. And while I will not be the main teacher, I will be leading or helping with one of the classes while he is with the other one. My goal is to read as much as I can of their conducting book and finish it this weekend.

I am going to pick up my keys tomorrow. I'm going to get maybe 7 or 8 keys. In other words, a lot of keys.

I also have my first official assignment. It is for research methods. And as silly as it sounds, I am so excited about having an assignment.

Tonight my school ends at 6. An early night!

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

If the First Rehearsal is Any Indication...



My first rehearsal went very well. Of course there was a lot more talking that I would have liked- going over the syllabus, explaining my goals and some things I want to happen this year, getting to know the ladies. I voiced each lady and placed them in a tentative section. I will spend more time with that today. I have a list of "to do" things, every thing from asking Jon (my teacher) clarifying questions to e-mailing some of the women to starting a thread in our Facebook group about some activities that Women's Choir can do this year.

After some confusion with the Men's Choir, we started warm-ups. The men stayed for the first 15 minutes singing with us before I asked them to go to their choir room and see if their director was there. The ladies finished warm-ups and then we went over the syllabus (huge gaff: I left the syllabus sitting next to the door at home). I went over my goals with them: Make good music they can be proud of, challenge them and myself to grow musically and as a person, to support and encourage them to be vulnerable to the music, and to foster a supportive environment between everyone. Then I listened to eat one of them sing. I have some really strong singers and everyone truly has something to give (and hopefully to receive) from this choir.

Voicing them took a lot longer than I thought and we were left with about half an hour left when all was said and done. They came in, I placed them in sections and we sang. The only song we got to was "Will There Really Be a Morning?" But they did well, were able to sing some harmony, and ended our time together in beautiful unison.

Next rehearsal, I really look forward to shutting up a little and having them sing. They have so much potential and I realized that if they do not do great things this year, it is completely my fault since they have the ability. Although that makes me feel a little anxiety, it really excites me and motivates me to work hard so I can be the best director possible.

Today is my first official class. Actually, two classes if you count choir. University Choir meets today for two hours. Then I have 4 hour gap before my second class- Research Methods.

Tonight will make for a late night. Mondays and Tuesdays I finish at 9:45 on campus. Last night I got home at 10:35.

The first picture is another photo of the music area but from a different angle. The second photo is the path I walk to get back to the bus stop when I'm going home. Last night I was happy to see that it was fairly well lit. There is a campus bus but I am not sure which bus to jump on to get me to the public transit stop. I will figure that out soon.

Monday, August 29, 2011

First Day of Grad School

First day of school.

What does my day look like? Well, it consists of attempting to sleep in (I woke up at 7), working out, laundry, typing up some things for Women's Choir, practicing, going over music.... notice I have no classes? I have a meeting today at 3 PM and Women's Choir at 7 PM tonight. It seems strange that my first day of school does not require me to wake up at 6 AM to get ready and head to class.

I am really excited about the first rehearsal tonight. I think it will be very successful. I had some last minute details to take care of this morning that I didn't get a chance to do yesterday due to John's birthday. Perhaps some pictures from that later.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Aced it

So, my TA amount does not cover as much as I wish it would. I had not thought that the amount received would be insufficient. I thought that either I would get nothing or that it would cover most of tuition. Of course, the experience of having my own college choir is wonderful, plus I AM still getting a small stipend. So even though the college is getting very cheap labor, I certainly would not refuse the position. That would be dumb and probably very ungrateful. But it does cause me to pause when thinking about finances.

On a positive note, I got the results back from my music history and music theory placement exams. I passed both and therefore will not have to take any remedial courses in history or theory. I will have to take one history course as a part of my program. But since I scored well in all areas, I can pick any historic era I want. I am registered to take an analysis course and will be able to keep that in my schedule since I passed theory. I'm very glad I will be getting that done with immediately.

It's almost the weekend. School starts Monday. John's birthday is Sunday.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Placement Exam = Done

Placement exam is done. It was so great to be done. The history portion, which was the second test we took, was fine. I felt very confident with most of it- with a few listening example exceptions. The theory tripped me up. I did fine on some of it, but am a little worried about some of the analysis. I did not review fugal analysis, mainly because I was not sure how to review. I should have looked at previously analyzed fugues, but I did not think that would help much. It would have. It seems like there is much more room for small mistakes to trip a person up in theory. So, that's what I'm worried about. I hope I do not have to take a theory review, but what is done is done.

On a fun note, in the history section I did call Wagner a jerk, said sprechtstimme sounded creepy to me, and mentioned that Ben Folds uses prepared piano in the song "Free Coffee"- kind of. He puts altoid tins on the piano strings and then pumps the sound through a distortion pedal/amp/whatever it's called.

Today I have been able to spend time on some music- just spending more time with it and singing through some of the parts. I've also done a little research on some of the songs my ladies are singing.

I am now going to head to the school and put together my choir folders. I am still missing my sight reading material, but I can copy that and put it in before Monday's rehearsal.

Running this morning was awesome. I listened to a Fresh Air about the beliefs that have shaped Michelle Bachmann. Very interesting. A little scary.

And I have discovered that Palestrina was amazing at word painting. What a smart guy.

Thursday, August 18, 2011

School Picture Overview






So the first picture is a picture of the bus stop that will be my stop. There are three bus stops at the school and this is the second one.

The second picture is across the street from the bus stop.

The third picture is just a pretty picture of foliage on campus. If you come to visit us, I'll take you there!

The fourth picture is of the sports complex next to the music building. Yes, it's a blue pyramid.

The last picture is part of the music department. The building to the left is a recital hall. Past the recital hall and on the right side of the picture are more music buildings.

Instructor Status


Here it is! My name under "instructor" of a college choir.

So my ultimate dream, the goal I've had since 8th grade, is to work with college choirs. As I have learned more and gotten more involved in the field, I have developed a passion to work with future choir conductors- teachers of all ages. Being able to help them teach about music and the world through the medium of music, specifically choir.

It's an awesome thing.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Selecting Music

There are many things I think about when selecting music for a group. I am in the process of selecting music for the Women's Chorus.

Right away, there are certain obstacles because I do not have all the information needed to make the best decision: number of students, skill level, etc. I have done some research. According to last year, there were about 30 ladies and it was a strong group. They sounded very nice at their May concert. But this does not mean it will be at the same place as last year.

So, understanding there may be changes is important, new knowledge added to change the framework of the group.

The first thing is to simply look at music- text, rhythm, ranges. Is there a theme to the concert? Do you want two soprano parts going back and forth on a high G? Do the altos constantly hang out around G or A3? Is it extremely polyphonic and will each part have to be completely comfortable in their independence? Is it a song that has a topic I want a group to sing about? Will they feel silly singing the words and never connect with the song?

If it passed the preliminary test, the next thing to do is to play through it- either the vocal parts, the accompaniment, or preferably both. Is it interesting? I look to progression, rhythm, word painting, etc. Does it capture attention or will the singers zone out because it sounds boring? Is it a song that is easy to teach other concepts through?

I normally put all the songs that pass this preliminary test in a different pile. I then will listen to each of these songs on YouTube or iTunes. Often times I'll play it again.

Then I need to make decisions that become more difficult: What mixture of songs do I want that will shape a program that the singers and the audience will want to invest in? Personally, I like to find one song that the singers will have immediate and somewhat easy success on so they start to have cohesion and pride as a group (normally either a schmultzy pretty piece or an excitingly rhythmic piece with easy harmony). Then I'll add in a mixture of difficulty and of different concepts- I'm likely to choose pieces that force my singers to listen to different things. For example: at least one piece that is vertical so their ear learns and practices how to adjust where they are in the chord and at least one piece in unison so that they learn the value of not just listening in how they are a part of a vertical chord but also how to be one voice. Also, depending on how well I know the group, I will likely choose at least one song that has a concept my singers really need improvement on.

During this step I often will eliminate more songs or I will put songs away for a different time/concert. And sometimes when I switch out one song, I need to look at the other songs to see if it would still make a cohesive program.

It's a very exciting process, especially when I discover some awesome new song or I learn that I can program a song I have always wanted to program.

By the way, my Women's Chorus has a facebook group page. Even if you cannot sing with us, I welcome you to join the group simply to show your support- or let me know if you'd like me to add you.

Keep singing!

Monday, August 15, 2011

Recruitment

I went to school today and spent over 5 hours there. It was actually really spectacular. I have decided on quite a few of my pieces for the fall concert and have some ideas for the winterfest concert, although I can't make any decisions until I know my choir.

Recruitment. That is what the next few weeks are about. Oh, and all the other grad school stuff. I am so blessed that John is able to help support us- because it would be very difficult to have a full time (or even part time) job. Today it hit me how much I really have to do.

My teacher said something today that made a lot of sense- graduate school is about paying your dues. He said that it's a lot of work and a lot of crappy work that I may or may not have to do in the future. I took that as long hours, a little bit of schmoozing (mainly to make connections), hard work, etc.

I also met the other grad student. I also had a meeting with a couple of undergrads and we talked about ACDA. What was really cool is that once every Friday we get to have staff meetings- my teacher, me, and the other grad student. It's awesome.

I'm so ready for this.

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Scrabble During Sunset

Yesterday evening John and I went to the beach to play Scrabble while the sun was setting. Rough life.

This upcoming weekend is a Jazz Festival that is happening very close to our apartment. Tickets are $45 so I doubt I will be going.

In other news: I received an e-mail today saying my name has officially been submitted for a Graduate Assistantship for the Women's Chorus. Everyone in the music department is positive that it will happen. Once it is approved, I have to go in and sign a contract. Then boom- money! Or at least, less money having to be paid out for school.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

All the things on wheels...

I finished the bulk of my note cards. I have a few more things to create notecards for, and then it's just a process of reviewing for my placement exam. I don't know if there is a worse way to start off grad school than by taking a remedial course in things I have already learned (and having to pay for it). So study, study, study. In mid-August I will meet with my primary teacher. I really look forward to getting started.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

A Moving Musician

I have decided that being a musician is one of the worst professions to be when trying to move. Instruments, books, accessories... How many instruments do two musicians really need? A piano, 7 guitars with one amp, a sitar, french horn, clarinet, trumpet, an instrument in the corner I can't remember the name of... and who needs two recorders? And I will never get rid of my psaltery, despite the fact I only take it out to play bluegrass Christmas music or show off my mad skills on Joy To the World (no, not the Jeremiah Was a Bullfrog version). Then we have all the books- both academic/theory related and books with songs in them to perform. One or two performance books will not suffice. I need 50- in multiple voicings. I also have a little collection of choral music. We also have to have clothes that will "prove" our serious musicianship when we perform. And then the accessories: Guitar picks, extra straps, strings, tuning fork, pitch pipe, batons, metronomes, etc.

Well, once all is packed, we will move all of our beloved instruments and belongings to California where I begin graduate school. I have registered for classes. One of them has been canceled and I will need to register for the new time slot. And did you know that graduate school classes can be scheduled at any time of the day? I'm taking a class that does not get over until 9:45 PM on a Tuesday. Is anyone even awake that late? I have a feeling it will take some adjustment.

However, I am looking forward to this next adventure. I could do without the packing, but all-in-all, I think everything will turn out well.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Photos of Protests





Better late than never, right?

One of my friends asked why I had not updated in awhile. I simply told him there was nothing to say. It was all very disappointing. Things have happened, of course, but it seems as though no matter who protested, it just created more stubbornness on the side of politicians. And the pushed ahead. And now the matter is tangled up in legal matters. It can stay tangled.


Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Ash Wednesday Capitol Scramble

Here is what I understand happened today: Wisconsin Senate Republicans removed all "budget" related items from the budget repair bill at 4:00 PM today. At 6:00 PM they voted on those things. It passed. This included all things about collective bargaining since that does not have a direct effect on the budget. What was strange about this? They only gave the public a two hour notice they were doing this. Apparently this is only to be done (2 hour warning) in an emergency situation. Also, they held the vote at 6:00 PM, the time the capitol is closed and no one from the public should be inside.

Arrived at the capitol about 7:00 PM. Nobody was being let inside. There were a growing number of protestors. People would rush to the doors if they thought it was being opened. When they realized they would not be let in, often they were started chanting "Whose house? Our House!"

A man walked by reminding us all to stay calm. He also said, "The Dems are pretty sure this is not going to hold up. Many think it's a ploy to get protestors to react poorly, to get unions to react strongly and find a way to use this against them. So stay calm. Be angry, but be peaceful. Be loud."

About 8:00 PM the doors were opened. No cops were by the doors. We were just let in. As we entered, those that were already in the capitol started clapping and cheering. More chanting, more cheering. We tried to figure out why we were let in. It seemed as if the cops just gave up and let us in.

But no, we were told the Assembly Democrats were going to hold a hearing about the bill the Senate passed. If there is a hearing in session, the capitol cannot be closed.

However, there was not a hearing room to be found. There continued to be thousands of protestors in the rotunda, chanting, cheering, thanking. The food came in. People brought in blankets. I spoke to three women who had gotten in earlier than me through a bathroom window. One of the women told me when the cops saw, they came running. Even though they were told to stop, one of the cops was smiling and said, "Ah, you might as well just get in here." And after that they shut the window.

In a small enclave, there were some people talking about making a choice to stay at the capitol or not. I was very confused (why were they talking about if we should stay or leave the capitol?). Finally, a man jumped on a megaphone and explained, for those of us that did not know what was going on, the assembly was no longer happening. Everyone was technically in there illegally.

The problem is, people were basically let in. How were they to know they were in their illegally?

I stopped another woman a little later (who was collecting signatures for a petition) and asked her if she knew any more. She said the Assembly Democrats tried to get an assembly hearing started since they were expected to vote on the bill tomorrow morning as early as possible. But "rumor goes" she stressed "that the sergeant-at-arms" denied the Democrats a chance to have an assembly hearing. Since there was no hearing, we were all there illegally. She had also heard that cops from around the state were coming to the capitol. Not really to make arrests, but just to have more of a presence.

The capitol was packed. On the way out, an officer had told us he had already worked a 12 hour shift and was going to work 12 hours tonight- 24 hours. A historic first for him.

The only thing I know is that the Assembly will more-than-likely be voting on this bill as early as possible tomorrow.

Monday, February 28, 2011

Wisconsin is Locked Out

I left the WI state capitol about 1:30 PM today. I got there about noon and walked around to every door. All were locked. What a surreal feeling to walk around and realize that you are locked out from a government building that you have been in multiple times.

I spoke with multiple people on security detail. No one knew why the doors were locked exactly. All said they had gotten this command from their commanders- all of whom were inside. One surmised it was to get cleaning done that they couldn't get done last night. This officer did confirm it was his commanding officers that were making the decision, but had no clue why. Most of the officers did not even venture a guess and knew nothing of why this order was in place.

The press may be reporting that there is bad relations between the police and protestors. This is simply not true. The police also feel this is completely bogus (I spoke with some about it)- and most of them I talked to freely expressed how pleased they were at how peaceful everything is. One of the officers I spoke with said, "There is no reason for any bad feelings. Everyone is so peaceful." His partner spoke a little bit about having no idea why they locked the capitol- she said it had been open earlier. She seemed to truly be flabbergasted as to why it was locked. Each officer I spoke with (of which I spoke with 5) were very friendly and were open to questions.
At one point people cheered and thank the cops for standing monitoring outside- after the speaker acknowledged the police had no choice. Many smiled at this.
When I left, they were forming three lines. 1) For those who had appointments with their assembly members 2) those that were scheduled to testify and 3) Those that wanted to go to the public hearing at 3 PM.
One entrance was open. Many people were still upset that people are locked out of the capitol. Myself included.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Union Article

The following is an article that I just wrote a Presbyterian magazine. I am unsure what the edited version will look like. But I thought I'd post the unabridged version here.

People have asked me, “Why do you care about this budget repair bill? It doesn’t affect you. You teach at a private school.” And I thought long and hard about how disappointed I would be in myself to remain passive, all out of fear. Wasn’t Jesus involved with and concerned about the injustice he saw in his society?

Jesus showed love and created community and calls on us to do the same. A great community has risen up in protest to Wisconsin State Governor’s budget repair bill. And it has risen up in the most loving way possible- by asking protestors to stay peaceful, by encourage respect toward police, by voicing opinions to legislators through appropriate channels, by cleaning the state capitol, and the list goes on.

On Valentine’s Day, I read a short but passionate article about the legislation, recalling slightly that I had also read a different article the day before that was much more vague. I perused the Wisconsin State Governor’s website, running over the bullet points listed there about the budget repair bill. Did it say that unions would become defunct? Not in so many words, but it did say that collective bargaining would only be able to negotiate pay within limits (although not things such as pay schedules). Collective Bargaining Rights were the sticking point. I read about protestors at the State Capitol and was desperate to get down there but was unable as I had to work late in the evenings.

February 16 was the first day the Madison School District could not have school because so many teachers called in sick. My friends who teach in the district still planned on going to work, since they were still requested to report to school even though there were no students. They had no doctor’s note and were not sick. They were mad but they were also torn. The rest of the week saw no-student days in Madison as well as many other districts in Wisconsin. 14 Democratic senators left the state so the state senate could not vote on the bill. Direct deposit stopped to their bank accounts and they now have to retrieve their paycheck in person at the capitol. None have come back to get paid (a source of encouragement to many protestors).

My first experience with protesting other than through the internet was on Friday February 18 after work. I was stunned when I walked into the Capitol. Homemade posters lined the walls- some asking the governor not to take away workers rights, some outlining how it would affect them, and a few demanding him to be recalled when it was a legal option. Of note were also the signs that asked protestors to put up the signs using blue tape, as this would not damage the walls. Signs were hung up with blue tape.

Heading into the rotunda, chants and drums grew louder. In the middle was a large group of young college-aged people. They were hitting drums, starting chants, dancing around, and sharing stories through a megaphone. Heading up to the second tier revealed many more people comprised of many more ages and even more signs, saying things like, “I love my teachers”, “Solidarity from North Carolina”, and “Workers Rights ARE Human Rights”. Stationed around the capitol were people offering food from Ian’s Pizza (people from multiple states had been calling in orders and asking it to be delivered to the capitol for the protestors), bottles of water, sleeping bags, first aid, an information “center”, a “family space”, and quiet but observant security officers.

The next day saw a very large protest. Some estimates were as high as 70,000 and some as low as 55,000. Either way, most people belonged to the protestors. There were volunteers “crowd controlling” and people wearing signs and reminding people that it was a peaceful protest. “Please,” one woman asked, “keep it peaceful. It may be difficult to keep a cool head when you hear things that are factually incorrect or mean spirited, but do not respond in a poor manner, otherwise that can be used against our cause.” And although there were signs with clever little quips, nobody that I saw became unreasonable. Some protestors stopped by the non-protestor rally. Here were signs that read things such as “Guess who is overpaid? Teachers! Do your share.” Other signs just said “Support Walker”. Those two signs give two very distinctly different feelings and also showed that perhaps there was no clear unifying factor for the non-protestors rally. But there were no brawls, no police intervention. Mostly the two groups just ignored each other. Some people were having heated but civil conversations. It was amazing. “Tell me what democracy looks like! This is what democracy looks like” was a common chant.

Sunday showed gross weather but still protestors came to the capitol. And Monday. And Tuesday. Wednesday evening I spent more time at the capitol. I met up with a young student who helped me lead the national anthem from the middle of the state capitol rotunda. I stayed up until 1:30 AM watching the Wisconsin State Assembly debate before sleeping on the hard, marble floor. I felt so extremely proud of the State Assembly for going over amendments- almost 40 hours continuously at this point.

The Wisconsin Law Enforcement Association issued a statement regretting their endorsement of Scott Walker. The Chief-of-Police in Madison was troubled by the fact the governor said he had considered planting trouble-makers among the protestors. The mayor met with city workers and negotiated contracts for the next two years. Firefighters, a union that also endorsed Scott Walker, have marched through playing bagpipes just about every day of the protests as the people chant “thank you!” People are angry that Scott Walker has threatened lay offs to public workers but recently gave tax breaks to corporations. I do not know if I can explain the feelings of the community when the Assembly passed the bill on Friday, February 25. While some people were glad, most I saw were disappointed, sad, and angry. The bill now waits on the Senate (which, if you recall, cannot currently happen).

The second protest the following Saturday showed even more protestors, continuing to be peaceful. There was more marching, chanting, sign holding, thanking, speeches. There continues to be a stream of people from both Wisconsin and outside of Wisconsin coming to rally to show support against the bill. The Wisconsin governor has made mention that “most of protestors are from out-of-state”. This is very far from the truth. Protestors still remain in the capitol, despite an order to leave the capitol. Security has determined not to arrest anyone as long as they obey the law. In fact, security asked those who were not planning to leave the capitol to go to the upper floors, while those who planned to leave could stay on the bottom floor of the capitol. So there a contingent of protestors remain. Who knows if they will be there in a week? I do not forsee the protestors giving up. This is not just a few people who are upset because they are being asked to pay more of their health insurance premiums. This is a large community demanding to keep their collective bargaining rights so they can have a say in working conditions, work environment safety, and the number of students in the classroom. This is a community that does not understand why the governor is making a choice to lay off workers instead of finding other responsible ways to balance the state budget (many question the tax breaks to corporations the governor passed his first month in office). This is a community, along with allies asking to collectively bargain in good faith.

Over and over again, I heard public workers emphasize “it is not about the money.” In fact, most are understanding of having to take a pay cut (billed as “paying more into their pension”) and pay more for health insurance. Then what is everyone protesting? Taking away collective bargaining rights.

People are determined to peacefully protest until the bill is re-evaluated and changed. Security and protestors are getting along. People who cannot take off work during the day continue to blog, post Facebook updates, text, and e-mail each other to show solidarity.

Who has come together for this bill? Just a short description of the people I have met protesting while at the capitol: students, teachers, retired teachers, pastors, fire fighters, police, nurses, doctors, plumbers, a stay-at-home mother, an Illinois-based road construction worker who has done a lot of work in Wisconsin, musicians, professors, a waitress from a local diner, accountants, state social workers, teaching assistants from the University, private company IT workers, lawyers, a water aerobics instructor, a librarian, artist, custodian, family, friends.

What a great sense of community- and what a loving protest. Jesus would be proud.