When I was teaching middle and high school, the summer would arrive and I would work to make money. But other than that, I didn't think much about teaching. I love teaching, but the summer would come and my goal was to run and do as many fun things as possible.
It's different now. Obviously, I still love doing fun things. I do fun things as often as possible. But it's the summer and I want to study music. I want to continue to learn about and practice knowing music... choral/orchestral works. I have plans to get through music this summer and have additional plans for this next school year. That is what is different now. I crave learning about music.
I know not everybody is as lucky as I am. I have no idea why, as an 8th grader, I decided I wanted to conduct choirs. Then, as a 9th grader, I had a conductor that was one of the most inspirational people in my life and I decided to model myself after him. And I have stuck with this idea and this passion, minus a short blip in 2009 in which I was unsure if I wanted to continue in music in the public school system. I realized that it was the system I was so frustrated at, and not the music or the teaching.
So, I am very lucky to have known what I have wanted to do since I was 13. It's one of the biggest defining factors of my life. It's one of the longest running.
There was a time I thought of this strong passion as a hinderance. If I didn't know what I wanted to do, I could explore other fields and become excited about other ideas. I no longer think of it as a hinderance.
All of this started from the difference between my summer this year and my summer three years ago.
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At first, I saw the headline as "How I know I am in Right Field" and I thought the post was going to be about baseball :)
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